Reflection

After a few days of pain I started peeling. I know, ew gross, and why is she sharing that with us? I was watching the News earlier and they were talking about the Snake calls that Fire Departments have been getting lately. Why you would call them about a snake is beyond me,but that's for a different story. It's been in the 100's and this is Arizona,what do they expect from the desert? 

What did stay in my mind is the snakes yearly ritual of shedding their skin. They rid themselves of what  no longer fits. I sometimes find these skins caught in the tumbleweeds. Sometimes the are just pieces and others I have found completely intact and you can see where how many rings on their rattlers there were. I thought about my own sun induced shedding of skin, and about what it is that no longer fits. What do I need to shed myself of?

 In 22 days I will be turning 43 and sometimes I think to myself, am I really that old? Granted I look at it from a perspective of how long until 50.  I know a lot has changed in the eyes of that 5 year old in the picture. I can't even remember what her hopes and dreams were or even what made her happy.  I know I loved Art or at least I think I would have. I did love school until I was in Third Grade and a very mean teacher stripped me of that. I would often look at this picture and try to remember who she was,what she was like. I mean, I know that is me, in 1971 but that is all I know. Have you ever done that? Found a picture of yourself and try to remember who you were at that place in time?

 As I type this, new thoughts come to mind. I have gone to school or taken classes for everything imaginable. I went to school for Cosmetology,Floral Designing,Communications, Real Estate,Reiki,and the list goes on. With the one exception of Reiki, I didn't finish any of them. I am proud to say that I am a Reiki II Practitioner and have the Certificate to prove it. But I wonder if there is a correlation between not finishing any of those classes and what that mean old teacher did to me and my love of school. 

There is so much in life that I didn't do because of that nagging laugh that says "You want to do WHAT??" I cheated no one else but myself of so many of life's experiences because of that darn Devil. I always wanted to make a career out of creating art,but like the lottery, "you can't win it if you don't play it" or in my case you can't sell it,if you don't create it.

  So perhaps it's my fear of failure that is being shed with each bit of very crispy skin lol. I want to usher in 43 with a lust for life and doing things with a determination and a force to be reckoned with. I want to see the things around me with the amazement and love of that 5 year olds eyes once again. 

Oh and I also went to school to become a Life Coach,how ironic is that?

Sneak Peak of Little Frida

Chiquita Frida

In honor of Cinco de Mayo and the fact that it marks the "30 shopping days" left until my Birthday, I thought I would share the almost finished "Little Frida". Ok so celebrating the last 30 days until I turn a year older isn't exactly what Cinco de Mayo is all about,but when I was young, there were two things that meant my day was coming. First the afore mentioned Cinco and the other was June Bugs. I grew up in Southern California and when I was little June Bugs were abundant and plentiful.  O.k. so what does this have to do with Little Frida? Nothing I just veered a little. 

                        Little Frida is painted on a 2x4" canvas and I think when she is done I will release her out into the world. What do you think about this idea? When I finish her I will post it and then if you'd like to have her I'll let you know what you have to do to enter. Sound good?

Happy Birthday Baby & Happy Anniversary too!

It's funny isn't it, how life sometimes turns out?

Today is Honey's 45Th Birthday. So I tried to bake him a beautiful cake,you know, the kind that you see in pictures. Tall and stately with fluffy frosting and mouth watering goodness. So, I went out and bought 2 round cakes pans. When I was mixing the batter I did it by hand and gently poured the batter into the well seasoned pans. Placed the pans carefully in the oven and tip toed around for 28 minutes.

When the timer went off I carefully pulled the cakes out and lovingly placed them on the cooling rack. I got the plate ready and stirred up the frosting and then..... when I flipped the first layer over,the darn thing stuck but just a little and I was able to patch it up. I frosted the top and sides and then went to flip over the top layer and wouldn't you know it a whole chunk stuck! Grrr I was so bummed.

The cake was lopsided and after loading on all those candles it slide even more. It took 2 boxes minus 3 candles to light up his night.

This June will mark 30 years that I've known him. I was a mere lass of 13 the first time I laid eyes on him. Tomorrow is our 2nd Wedding Anniversary. We married each other twice. First time was at the Santa Ana Courthouse and 5 years ago we did the Church thing which turned out a total disaster,but I'll save that for another post.

Growing up there were 2 things I was adamant about. One was I NEVER wanted to get married and second I never wanted kids. I wanted to travel to Ireland,Paris and Scotland. I wanted the glamorous life of a Journalist.

It's now 18 years and 3 kids later and my life has been far from glamorous. The only Paris I've been to is Lake Perris. I'm pretty grateful though for how my life has turned out.
Had my life been left to continue the way it was going back then I'd probably be dead.
Funny isn't it,how life turns out.